So…I want to talk about a subject that I’ve not been able to find much info on…believe it or not…even after searching and searching on the web.
My husband has been home from deployment for 3 weeks. We’ve been together 20 years, so I knew we had a solid relationship. I wasn’t concerned about him coming home…not a single bit.
Seems as though, however, my world has been slightly rocked…
…and I didn’t expect that.
There is AMPLE information on the web about what to expect from our men & women when they return from deployment…information about signs of post-traumatic stress disorder, how to be patient as they acclimate back into society, what to expect after returning from war.
I want to say that I’m PLEASED that there is so much info about these different things…but…WHERE is the info about how “I” might react, about how “I” may feel as the spouse?!?!?!?
Turns out getting used to my hubby being home is a bit more difficult than I anticipated…not because HE is different, but because I AM.
I’ve changed over the past year. I’ve always been independent, but I’m now INDEPENDENT. I don’t want to give it up…I don’t want to give up my traveling. Don’t get me wrong…he’s not asking me to. I’m just having this internal struggle that I must work through.
Lack of schedule (and I’m a schedule-girl) hasn’t helped.
We agreed this weekend that I will continue my daily schedule as I had while he was gone. He will then work on getting his own schedule and integrating it into mine. I find it so odd that we are even having to think this way…we never have before. However, we’ve never been in this situation before…post-deployment.