Ugh…….how to deal with the stress of a deployment? I thought that I had this thing down. I mean, we are in the last stage of it…only 4 months to go…that’s a drop in the bucket. BUT when you see your child hurting, all bets are off. Add in pms…recipe for disaster.
It has been a very tiring past few days. I’m going on little sleep. Our son has been having almost like panic attacks the past few nights. It’s always about something different, but when I can strip away all of the “stuff,” it’s about lose. I know that we are not the only family going thru this. I know that there is a lot of help out there. I may need to seek it.
These past few nights have led to yucky days for me. I’m a girl who needs sleep. I have a hard time functioning without it. Needless to say, I’ve missed my workouts the past few mornings. If I don’t workout, I tend to also not eat healthy. For me, it’s a hand-in-hand deal. Not working out or eating well makes me feel awful.
…and I currently feel awful.
Cuz I’ve sooooo been in the zone the past few weeks…have felt on top of the world.
I know that I have to cut myself some slack, but it’s very hard to. Lots of people depend on me. I don’t like to let people down. I know that this is just a “moment” I’m having…that I’ll work my way out of it. It can be such a quick slippery-slope into a pit. I can’t go there. I refuse to.
Just please don’t put me on a pedestal. I’m no different than anyone else. I don’t have super powers or some amazing secret. I’m simply me…doing the best I can.